Dreading Tomorrow

Time ticking, seconds slipping
The dread is coming, creeping slowly
Slowly but surely, like death in its wake
Time ticking, seconds slipping

Why must time keep on going?
Why can’t it stop awhile and breathe a little
Or much more take a vacation like everyone else
Why must it keep on going?

My eyelids are dropping
I must not sleep, I must keep time busy
Lest I forget and find myself
At tomorrow’s grasp, helpless and sorry.

I’m dreading tomorrow
Every second that passes by are seconds nearer
To the trepidation that gnaws upon me
Foreboding, menacing the very core of my soul.

____________

Poem by Em

Picture courtesy of Naoms

The Evergreens - My kind of plant

Resilient is the best word to describe these plants of old.

No matter how hot and no matter how cold.


It will stand it's ground and will not fold.

Seemed like Mother Nature's favorite plant to hold.

hot and cold... the fickle minded nature

Last summer the bike trail was green and lush.
The sun and the air were warm and balmy.
The leaves were singing and dancing.
Life’s hustle and bustle was everywhere.

This is the same bike trail in winter.
The sun and the air are cold and indifferent.
The leaves have gone leaving their branches bare and lonely.
Most of all... it’s quiet and eerie.

The creek was boisterous; anyone can hear it from a distance.
The water is rushing; going somewhere and boy was he late!
And it looks like nearby plants wants to come along
Nearer to the water they try to slither some more.

In the winter the creek has slept
Completely unmoving, frozen and still
Plants have gone as far away as they can from its frozen grip
And velvet white has shrouded its deep slumber.

A scandal by the pond

There I was, beside the pond, basking in my own reverie,

When my eyes were caught by a malicious duck not far from me,

He's doing something you see, not once or twice. I lost count after three,

You'll know what I mean, If you see him you'll agree,

Is this duck mooning me?!?!

I think he is!!! Oh! Scandalous to the Nth degree!

_

________________________

I should apologize to the duck... I know I'm the one with the malicious mind. Guilty, your honor!

But I did asked permission from the duck so I can post this .... :D But he's just so busy doing that.... I think he's talking to a mermaid... but he should know that people above the water are blushing everytime he does that!

Happy Na, Birthday Pa!

Maligayang Bati! Maligayang Kaarawan!
To a mother and a grandmother!
Lots of best wishes, lots of love
to a wonderful person from heaven above!

Little did she know, little did she see,
how important she is in our lives
how we see her as our hope and our light
to the path we are treding day and night.

To you grandma, we wish the best!
May many more birthdays be your yearly guest
May we be the source of your pride
as you are always ours!

___________________________

My mom's birthday is always a holiday back home. We used to spend the day and celebrate at Loyola cemetery. Some days were rainy, some days were really hot but all of them fun and fulfilling. It's been our tradition to do so every year. Now that we are in a different place ... the tradition have been tweaked somehow. We still go to the cemetery and pay our respect to our departed loved ones but we can't saty too long. It is cold and it will be a feat to stay warm unless we bring some portable heaters. Now, we celebrate her birthdays at home. This year, I cooked her some pansit, roast chicken and buttered asparagus.

To you mommy.... I thank you for everything that you have done for me and for my children. I love you always!

Kaklase ko si Jim Carrey..... NOT!

Ganitong ganito ang kanyang mga ngiti... hanggang ngayon akoy nakikilig..ehehe

Nakita ko si Jim Carrey nakaraang Martes.
Pero ang pangalan nya according sa kanyang nameplate ay Paul.
Kaklase ko sya sa isang training na ginanap sa facility namin sa Burlington.
Nakaupo sya sa malapit sa harapan at diretsong opposite ng kinalalagyan ko.


Sa ganyang arrangement, hindi mahirap na mahagip sya ng paningin ko sa tuwing titingnan ko ang aming guro o ang malaking projection board.
Talaga naman na nakakaaliw dahil sa striking similarity nila ng tunay na Jim Carrey.

Parang sya ang nakakabatang kapatid ng tunay na Jim Carrey.
And kanyang taas at balinkinitang pangangatawan,
Ang hugis ng kanyang mukha, ang kanyang mga mata
At higit sa lahat ang kanyang bukod tanging ngiti.
Ngiti ng tunay na Jim Carey sa maniwala ka at hindi.

Sa tuwing daraan ang paningin ko sa kanya, parang may magnet na magpapako ng aking tanaw … ulit ulit na namamamngha sa lapit ng kanilang mga mukha.
At mula sa wala, napapangiti ng bigla.
Hindi maitago aking pagka aliw at pagkamangha
Umaasang isang sandali na sya ay magpatawa.

Sa aking isip at imahinasyon… sya nga ang tunay na JimCarrey
Sa kanyang normal na buhay na empleyado at estudyante.
Pero kahit na gayon, kahit gaano na kapormal
Nakakatuwa and nakakatawa parin.

Siguro napansin nya mga ngiti kong puno ng mangha
Subalit kahit minsan hindi nya pinunlakan
Ang aking mga lihim na hiling
“Magpatawa ka naman, kahit man lang kaunti.”
Isang ngiwi ng labi habang naduling ang mga mata
Mga contorted na mukha ng comedian na si Jim Carrey

Pero sa huling sandali
Nang ang lahat ay patapos na…
Bola ng comments inumpisahang ipasa
Nagulat na bigla ang lingkod nyong tulala
Bola na hawak ni Jim Carrey
Binato sa akin … ako ang pinili

Baka naman nagkataon lang..
Baka naasar sa kakangisi ko…
Pero tuwa naman ako
Dahil napansin din kahit paano

Maganda pala kaklase si Jim Carrey
Di ka maaantok at di mabubwisit
Pero wish kolang na sa susunod
Na makadungpalad na maging magkaklase kami ulit
Na paunlakan nya aking mga nasa….

Ganito man lang sana…
Palihim at pansamantala…
Awesome talaga
Papa autograph na!

____________________

To my friends who cannot understand a word I wrote on this post... I apologize.

I'm on one of those tagalog moods.

I promise to make it up on other posts.

The Colors of Fall- The last Show

Before the last leaf falls to the ground
Before the first snow flurry touch the soil
Before all the colors has gone to sleep
And pure white overcomes us all

Let’s capture the last show
That nature has to stage
A kaleidoscope of colors
A cabaret of hues and shades

The show of all shows
Magnificent, grand and free
To entertain the eyes
Fill the mind of what they used to be

Until they bow and withdraw
Behind the white curtain they will stay
Until spring comes again
When they wake up and play

And begin a colourful show
All over again.

Emo Time....

"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

(When you love someone and he/she doesn't like you, let him/her be. You'll never know, in the coming days you will find yourself not liking him/her too, he/she just beat you to it).

"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

(If your not happy anymore, leave. There's no medecine to stupidity but self initiative.)

"Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang."

(If someone you love does not love you, don't complain. Because there were people that you don't love but loves you. Its only quits.) Hehe... i admit i suck in translating tagalog to english.

"Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka."

(It’s not sadness or fear that is difficult in being alone but the acceptance that out of all the billion people in the world, not a single one fought to be with you.)

____________________________

Mga quotes mula kay Bobby Ong. Nag snow kasi kanina... medyo nakakalungkot. Malamig na naman... makulimlim nanaman ang mga araw at mahaba ang gabi. Sabi ko... EMO time again....

It is Done.... it is cast!

A special day indeed

to exercise my right

and my say in government

my hope and my plight

This is my assigned voting place

X marks the spot for sure

a hundred steps from home

a thousand step to a new future

Hmmm... this is new! This is queer!!

This is not what I was used to back home..

No people around, no one to hand out little leaflets

It almost scared me but lets see some more !

No armed guards, no intimidating bullies

I went directly to my polling booth.

Gave my card and proved my identity

And in a covered desk i did my truth.

No computers, no high tech gadgets

Just a list, a ballot box and a covered desk for privacy

No lobbying, no leaflets and endless chaos

Just a stream of people, exercising their right and duty.

This is my piece of mind and my piece of hope

My first in Canadian history

May they be heeded, may they be heard

May they be an intrument of unity and harmony.

Today I Thank Thee

Today we gather round this bounty
To celebrate our gratefulness
For the blessings of plenty
For deeds of compassion and kindness

We thank our Lord
We thank our family
We thank our friends
We thank everybody

I say thank you Lord
For the blessings of each day
For the gift of life
And the guidance along our way

I say thank you to my family
For their love and support
I may lose everything I own
But their love will never fall short

I say thank you my friends
For making life complete
For caring and encouraging
Making life sweet

I thank everybody
For we live in harmony
We take challenges together
And make earth a better place.

------------------------------

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYBODY! Kain na!

My First in Canadian History....

Tis they sent to me....

My first in Canadian history -

It said read carefully...

and bring to the poll a proof of identity.

Identity I have of course

although sometimes I ask myself..

but that is not my distress...

My apprehension and dread....

I will go to the poll bright and early

with radiant hope and reverie

but alas! My pen stopped suddenly

Who will I vote? Who will it be?

I think they forgot to put in the card...

"When you vote, you MUST

know your nominee's name!"

--------------------------------------------

I admit it!! It's exciting to be able to vote and really feel I belong in this country. It's my first time and I'm quite excited! My excitement is quite obvious as you can see on my poem. But! I don't have the slightest idea of who i will be voting for. Politics is like a monotonous movement of the windmills for me. It completely bores me and can put me to sleep anytime. I can tell the names of the leaders and dragons in the book i'm reading and their character and leadership styles but ask me the differences between these governments politicians running in the federal elections and I'll give you a blank stare.

Okay... I may know the names of the officials but other than that... I'm completely and utterly clueless!!

Aha! I know what I need! A voting buddy!!! Someone who can explain to me the vested interests of these candidates. Someone who will convince me why I should vote for which aspirant. I've got to find that person in ...hmmm... 14 days!

Ugh! I'm completely hopeless!

9/11 .. the terror that was

“Time is passing. Yet, for the United States of America, there will be no forgetting September the 11th. We will remember every rescuer who died in honor. We will remember every family that lives in grief. We will remember the fire and ash, the last phone calls, the funerals of the children. “

- President George W. Bush, November 11, 2001

I bowed my head today

Offered my deepest respect

My utmost reverence

to the innocent lives that was lost

Lost from terror and treachery

without concience and heart

I may not know them personally

but I feel the depth of their pain and hurt

their suffering and the agony...

I bowed my head in silence...

_______________________

I can very much remember that day. I was off from work and a call came in telling me to hurry and open the TV and watch CNN. I stood there staring... i can't believe what I'm seeing. All that was coming out of my mouth was ... "no....., no.......no..... this is not happening". I was in Manila, Philippines.

Remembering Lola

My grandma passed away
This 6th day of September
When the air is getting colder
And the night is getting longer

As a child I would remember her
A strict lola, ready to give an advice or two
I found myself following her around the kitchen
Learned to chop, peel and cook stew.

I watch her sew dresses from morning til night
She hauls me to the market for her sewing needs
She made me my first graduation dress
Complete with frills and ribbons and beads

She went away to Canada
But made sure she visits as much as she can
We missed her dress making and cooking
Even her long sermon to the whole clan

We met again in Canada
It’s nice to see her everyday again
It’s nice to see my children know her more
Hear her stories and her wise words

Today is the day my grandma left yet again
Today is the day she went to yet a better place

In time we will see ach other

To never never part again.

___________________

My grandmothers death anniversary was last Sept 6. It was 4 years ago. We had a mass offering in her name and spent some time with her at her resting place.

I dedicate this post to her momories.

Power of Two, A dedication

You gave new meaning to the word friendship
For someone like me who had doubts and misgivings
In a world full of adversities and uncertainties
You made me realize that not all is lost
That friendship is not something to be given up
But it’s something to put my hope on.

This is my way of thanking you and letting you know
My true and deep appreciation
From my heart to yours

You rock !

Token, Token where shall we go?

This is my token of freedom.

I need at least two of this each work day.

If I want to stop by the coffee shop on my way to work,

Or I need to run an errand on my way home,

I will be needing one more.

A tiny token, can go as far as the eyes can see

From one bus to another,

From one bus to a subway train

From one train to another

The fare will be the same.

One weekend I felt like going to the Mall

Two little tokens willing to get me there

I waited for a bus infront of our house

One token is all the driver need.

The bus stopped at the subway

I transferred to a subway train

I passed through tunnels, dark and deep

Until it went up and I have to take the LRT

I see green and trees and my destination

One token all the way to the mall

One token to ride them all

It is amazing for one tiny token

To get me to my most desired places

and one more to get me home sweet home

The Moon and Me

The moon..
It’s full tonight
Amidst the dark night
Without a star in sight.

Me...
Out for a walk
Without anyone to talk
Wondering around the block

The moon..
First peeking behind a cloud
Then there he is full and proud
Inquiring why my heart is bowed

My heart is bleeding
My hope is fading
My faith is crumbling
To the dark night I’m slowly disappearing

My lady, my dearest princess
Despair has gripped your heart in darkness
Let not your spirit wallow in emptiness
For I can see the road before you filled with happiness

Let me light your path through this vagueness
Let me build you new hope as a fortress
Until you heal your faith strong and dauntless
Until your heart can fly again, soaring the sky unrelentless.



I’m glad you’re here dear moon
I’m glad you asked me why
I’m glad you made the dark sky
A bit brighter, a bit less sly

I promise you this for sure
I will heal my heart, I will endure
I will see your promise of the future
And I will rise and soar with you forever and more.

___________________________

I was awed by the beauty of the moon one night. It has inspired me to write a short poem to express the depth of wonder I feel when it's at its fullest. The way it reaches out to the melancholy of the night, waiting, foreboding. Yet .. I feel no fear but instead a feeling of lightness, an overwhelming emotion of peace and tranquility.

...hehe... i'm being sentimental...not a comedian. LOL ... in between those lines, although in all seriousness, there are 'manananggal", "tikbalang" (creatures of the night), peeking and grinning at me ready to pounce when ever I give them the signal...hehe.

But really!! I am serious!

One Morning Greeting from the Blue Sky

Blue sky yesterday Grey today
Did the blue sky
Go away?


What is blue
And sunny too?
The blue sky
Hiding behind the grey.

Grey today
But with blue sky
Waiting to come outAnd play.


The sun is laughing
At my blueness
Blue sky with its greyness
Never meant for sadness.

Blue sky here today

But with a greyness

Covering all the blueness

This is what I want to say.

---David Taylor

------------------------------------

I thank David Taylor for the poem. It is a very cute poem which reflects my sentiments when i first viewed the sky this morning from my balcony. It's the sight that I just needed to start my day. A day of infinite possibilities! The birds flying added the needed touch to complete a perfect scene. I wish I was there with them enjoying freedom at it's best. To soar as high as they can and conquer the sky and the wind. To feel the sun rays before it even touch the earth.

After that, I'm back to earth. Off to find my infinite possibilities!

WS#012 - Children are like balloons

Children are like balloons with a message inside.

They start out small and we inflate themwith something of ourselves.

As we pour our lives into them-they spread sunshine,

give joy, brighten the days of grandmas and grandpas and cheer up the sick.

They remind us of being young and that life is fragile.

They celebrate living!

When discouraged, they are like a balloon that deflates.

A simple openness allowsus to refill them…with hopefor the future,

a feeling that they are special and the knowledge that God loves them.

Their enthusiasm is like a balloon carried on the wind with never ending energy.

They sway and drift.

It’s then that they need our prayers and loving guidance,

without too much pressure that would cause them to burst.

The time comes sprinkled with tears and joy,

when others are able to read the message we have written on their hearts.

So we let go and let God have His way

With our precious balloons…not the end…Truly the beginning!

----------------

Poem is courtesy of Florage by Gay Christie site. The two children on the picture are my nephews. Both six years old and are the youngest of our clan here in Canada. They were both new borns when we first set foot on this land. Now they are vivacious children continiuosly showering our lives with joy and hope. It was taken during the surprise 60th birthday party for our aunt (their grandma lola). They also did a small dance number for her which really made us proud and happy (see previous post).

Happy WS everyone!

Sa Meeting Inaantok Part 2

Oras na naman ng meeting
Siniguradong may bitbit na kape
Pangalawa tasa na kaya umaasang gising
Upang di maidlip at tuluyang masisante

Siguro naparami ang aking nainom kasi
Sa upuan napansin, sarili’y di mapakali
Habang nag-e-explain puti kong katabi
Ako nama'y ikot ng ikot sa silya tila atubili.

“Ouch!” sa gitna ng kanyang speech biglang nyang bulalas!

“Ay! Did I just kick you?” sabi ko, pati ako nabigla!
Di kaya yung katabi nya sa kabila??ops wala pala.
“ Sorry, sorry”..tangi kong sambit
ako nga iyon ngunit di alam kung bakit.

Baka daw di ko gusto kanyang binibida
O may nabigkas na di kaaya aya?
Lahat po ng nasa meeting naghagalpakan ng tawa
Habang ang mukha ko pulang pula

Dyaskeng kape yan ako’y pinahiya
Magaling sa una, pagkatapos ay papalya
Kwidaw ako ngayon pagkat namumuro na.
Sa meeting pirmi nalang napupuna.

Hindi Ko Na Alam

Kay tagal na lumipas ang panahon
Ang nakaraan ay tila panaginip
Di ko na matandaan sa tinagaltagal
Mga rosas na alaala
Totoo ba o kathang isip lamang

Paano na ngaba ang magmahal?
Lalo na kung paano mahalin?
Mula ng masaktan at dayain
Sa laro ng puso sumumpang di bibigyang pansin.

Puso ay sadyang parang bato
Damdamin malamig na tila yelo
Hindi sa ako’y nagrereklamo
Nasanay na at ako ay kuntento.

Ngunit sa likod ng aking gunita
Bahagya at matulin na parang bula
May alab at pitik ng kaba
Damdaming kakaiba.

Mabilis at saglit
Darating at mawawalang ring bigla
Ano kaya yon at bakit ganoon?
Saan ito patungo at saan paroroon?

Hindi ko na alam
Hindi ko na alam
Kung paano ang mahalin
O di kaya’y magmahal.


---------------------------------------------------------

Ang tula ay kathang isip lamang po. :) Kung may natamaan...hindi po ako yun!!! LOL